Recently I was looking for our Flip Video camera (a little handheld video device that we used a lot before we got Iphones). I found it in a box, and turned it on to see if it still worked. There were 29 short home videos on the camera, most of Wes being silly with dance parties, etc. The last 2 videos were taken on 11/4/10 – one during Hannah’s birth and the other about 30 minutes after she was born. We were so happy – Greg and I are beaming with our sweet little girl in our arms. I remark on the video how surprised I am with how perfect she is. I can’t believe our good fortune.
Now I look at this video and hear those words with a whole new lens of what good fortune is. We were so blessed to have Hannah in our lives. The heartbreaking reality of her disease made each day with her so very, very precious.
It is hard to believe that we’ve now had Hannah in heaven longer than we had her with us on earth. She continues to be our teacher, providing wisdom and grace far beyond what I ever imagine possible.
Yesterday Wes, Maura and I were walking home after brunch. We were talking about Hannah, and within a minute a hummingbird came to the bush in front of us and sought out the few flowers that were still there. Our little sign from nature that Hannah is with us.
We love you and miss you sweet Hannah. Today we will go to your bench, send up balloons (including one from your baby sister) and again thank you for being a part of our family.
And our song for sweet Hannah…
Annie’s Song by John Denver
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest
Like the mountains in springtime like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert like a sleepy blue ocean
You fill up my senses come fill me again
Come let me love you let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter let me die in your arms
Let me lay down beside you let me always be with you
Come let me love you come love me again